Thursday, May 27, 2010
i've done packing my bag for tmrw.
and im freaking hungry! lyke really hungry!
should i cook maggie or should i just starve myself to slp?
probably the best ans is to eat. tak bleh tahan!
so yeah floorball trg was pretty fun just now.
plus tiring much laah, especially warm up.
okey now my mood have change. haiz...
im having mix feelings. am i that bad?
lyke wtf sey? being nice sometimes and
not having any intention for being nice,
is wrong hah? i didn't know that?
i didn't know that texting was a bad idea.
i really dunnoe whats on ur mind when u said that.
didn't really expect that coming at all..
oh well what can i say, im a complicated problematic child.
♥ 10:35 PM
currently at school right now.
and yeah aper lagi fb juga lah.
class before this was so so much fun!
we didn't really have any lesson before.
so since Faiz brought along this lappy.
webcam of cause! we really had our crazy moments!
it was lyke sumpah gerek!!
we take pics, look at it and laugh out loud seeing it!
i really just love them! they the best in sch! (:
soon will be having our break in half n hour time.
so gonna get thosai!! Mr Prata here we come!!
and now im lyke tired, sleepy, hungry.
after sch gonna ahve floorball trg.
tu agi mcm aku mls kaan! but nvr mind must go!
p.s oh boy you're so cute. and you remind me of him.
♥ 11:35 AM
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
last post was on Saturday and it's Wednesday.
damn! my blog is pretty dusty.
actually wanted to blog on Monday.
but delay delay until today.
my laziness ar cannot angkat!
lyke omg it's gonna be weekend! (:
gonna be spending my weekends at Malaysia.
celebrating Mum's birthday! woohoo!
indeed gonna be fun fun fun!
but i'll be back on Sunday alone.
suruh part time lover ambek kt JB tak nak.
tkt motor tercinta nya hilang. -.-
speaking of the part time lover, went out with him last Sat.
he was suppose to fetch me at Dhoby Ghaut as i got some project meeting.
but in the end he was still snoring at home and i came to his place.
plus the meeting was cancel! _l_
uat penat ajer aku bgn siang2 tapi tkder hasil!
so yeah headed to Suntec, Town n Arab Street!!
biasa juga alek2 Sheesha juga si Ain nie kan.
and seriously on Sat the traffic is lyke fuck!
there was to many cars on the road!
and we were lyke under the hot sun.
dah buka helmet terus member tegur asal berpeluh.
and best part nie bdk bwk mtr mcm nak bunuh aku!
and ya my hair was flat coz of the helmet lah. ):
usually when we went out we dun talk much.
but this time we had so many topics to talk about.
okey enuf about Saturday already, dah lepas lame pun.
post is getting to wordy so better stop for now. (:
♥ 10:32 PM
Saturday, May 22, 2010
dude, you still somewhere lingering in my head.
damn! i miss you a whole lot again.
can you get out of my head already?
really you one guy who still stuck in my head.
not letting go even reality is you move on.
oh my oh my, whats wrong Ain?
oookey shuddup already! i starting my crap again.
hahaha wth! cock! shit! mepekx!!
deadline are oretty close and much work need to me done.
test keep on coming and i bet exams are too.
oh well need to really do well for all exams. (:
than it will be holidays!!!
gonna have chalet during June hols..
and so so gonna enjoy and party people!!!
tomorrow another meeting held in the afternoon..
but whr should i go after that hah?
nvr mind that is a no prob situation!
♥ 12:04 AM
Saturday, May 15, 2010
i got to stop all this.
i shall never turn back and look at it.
it's pointless and will never change anything.
i know i can and i shall try to do it.
everyone who been there for me is just great.
you guys really help me and giving me advice.
i should look on the brighter side.
if i can't get him, i won't play a dirty trick.
i will just follow with the flow and let fate decide.
and on the same time i make the changes.
i can't expect everything to turn the way i want it to be.
but for sure i can make it a better one.
this isn't a mistake or a wrong path i took.
it's just a lesson for me in life.
i never regret knowing you or will hate you.
you were part of my life for a moment,
so i will keep it safe in my memories.
it was great knowing you and getting close to you.
but it looks like we aren't meant to happen.
i came and want to end things correctly and in peace.
after much thinking, it's not worth waiting.
i'm no good for you, coz i noe someone else deserve u better.
but how i wish u appreciate a lil' bit of me.
oh well this is it. im closing the chapter to this drama of mine.
i gotta get on my feet and start something new.
a fresh new chapter will be great. (:
♥ 9:27 PM
Thursday, May 13, 2010
please eh stop it sey perangai.
tak mu bbl mcm P laah.
serious shit stop it seey.
on a lighter note, feeling2,
mcm nak tukar blogskin.
but lyke leceh also ader.
but mcm dah boring dgn nie skin pun ader.
but mcm sayang pun ader.
coz i like this very much.
naaah! won't change for now lah.
and wow! its Friday! thats super fast!
and its been 1 week, haizz what a hell of a ride..
1 week seems so fast lyke just few days.
tomorrow is Friday and i shall enjoy my weekends,
instead of not doing anything. (:
♥ 11:53 PM
im bored at home!
there's nothing fun to do.
hmmm bored much!
im too tired and too slpy for sch
or even for my floorball trg.
2nd tyme of trg jer dah tk gi.
gosh! im so lazyyyyy.
and im so hungry now!!
both parents plus bro went to Melake..
so left me alone with nothing at home.
and i still keep thinking of it.
bitch much! hypocrite much! asshole much!
ookey what's wrong with me?
i shouldn't be disturb by all this.
coz i have my friends who appreciate me and they are thr for me.
ily people much much!! ♥
ooh well i want go and find something..
something interesting to do and get my mind of this. -_-'
♥ 5:15 PM
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
i did and i try but i just couldn't let go and move on.
its not as easy as i want it to be.
i wonder how it made so easy for u.
i see you are happily living ur life.
good for u coz it just show me alot.
really shows me a lot about you.
gosh! why am im still thinking about it.
why why why? if he can why not me?
why must i? why can't i just move on??
AIN!! u really need to do something.
i just cant go on and living in my past.
damn! this is really killing me inside!
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice,
but falling in love with you was beyond my control."
♥ 9:26 PM
Monday, May 10, 2010
"Sometimes, you got to reflect yourself in the mirror. Maybe you are the reason."
i try fighting to hold on to you.
i try everything i could.
coz of just a msg u made a decision to do this.
you are being unfair!
how many times have i gone through shits with u?
you text other girls in front of me.
even had fights when with me.
did i ever say anything? did i Qn u abt it.
i just keep quiet and dun say much.
coz i dun want us to get affected.
but u being so unfair making it all my fault.
you making me look so bad that u dun see how u treat me.
have you think how i feel all this tyme?
you never! you never noe how it hurts!
you just think about urself and what u want.
have you every asked me? ):
goosh this really is killing me!!!!!
♥ 9:26 PM
imysm! ):why must it turn out this way?i dun wish for us to be lyke this.please i dun want to go through this.its really heartbreaking.. )':♥ 9:02 PM
im seriously down right now.
i dunnoe what is in ur mind.
as time goes by i just feel lyke crying every minute of it..
i try not too, i try to be strong.
but i just couldn't that i had to let the tears go.
it is so heartbreaking to receive that msg from u.
i never expect and want that to happen.
seriously im not even close to seeing that.
gosh! this feeling is killing me.
you just left me hanging in the first place.
making myself to question am i not good for u.
how bad did i treat u that u dun appreciate what i do.
im really disappointed. ):
you the least person i want to cry for.
i dun want us to be lyke this. pls i can't.
how i wish u really know how i feel.
how selfish can u be. just letting me hanging.
thinking, questioning, cursing, crying!
arrggh!! i hate this feeling right now.
i dun want to go another minute of this.
its seriously a heartbreaking situation!
♥ 8:29 PM
Sunday, May 9, 2010
sumpah aku tgh membara skrg!
lyke serious shit dah tk leh take it.
kalau tak nak cakap!
jgn naaak buat perangai mcm gini.
kau fikir aku apeer? mainan?
kau ingat nie fun fair peer??
senang2 jeer nak uat aper kau suka??
aku bingit sngt tersngt aar..
i made an effort but you??
and whr the hell are u??
aku kat sini mcm orang bodoh tapi ader kau kesah peer??!!
arggggggh!!!!! can i lyke stab you??!
ya i wish i can! m so angry and i cant help it!
been takign in nicotine times and times!
and i got to stop before i kill myself!
bout how could i, with this kind of stress???!!
♥ 11:54 AM
Thursday, May 6, 2010
its gonan be friday!!
the day which im looking foward too.
its time to enjoy and party!!
weekends is just what i need.
time to slp for a looooong time.
plus a time to relax n not think of sch..
but wait, i just remember i still have my project!
damn you project! suck balls!!
nvr mind i still got 2 days to do till our meeting.
must we lyke have the meeting on a Sunday??
soo not needed seeey!!
ooh well planning to go off n have my beauty slp soon.
since tmrw still need to sch,
even if it start 1hr after 8am which is 9am,
still need wake up in the morning n drag my ass to sch.
so nights all!!
♥FRIDAY SATURDAY SUNDAY ♥
♥ 11:41 PM
sorry maybe the simplest or hardest word to say.
but really deep down inside im sorry.
things weren't suppose to be lyke this but it did.
it never did happen between us,
but i thought we could make it as friends.
well looks lyke it only lasted for 4 months.
being a friend to you was a great experience.
thanks a lot for everything, and really i appreciate it.
you shower me with care, concern, love, and been thr for me.
but sorry in return i could only give you friendship and not love.
well i didnt expect things end this way,
coz i dun want be an enemy to u.
oh well i guess from now we done with everything.
and its a goodbye for real.
take care of yourself aites ex-friend.
♥ 8:50 PM
sorry babe but it wasn't a mess i create.
you create it and u got urself into it.
im not here to play any games with you.
sorry im not that kind.
if you think what i did was on purpose,
than think for urself what u did?
guess what im not lyke that and i dun play games.
if it was a purpose it will be much more worst.
im cool, im chill coz i noe how to be real.
i can do much better than that and u yet see the worst of me.
come on dun be such hypocrite here k.
really i nvr thought you was that sorry.
you got urself in this, and i wont say much.
sorry if this kinda too harsh but u got to accept it.
♥ 8:05 PM
i hate me.
i suck big time.
im a mistake.
im just such a waste.
♥ 12:01 AM
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
an unexpected thing happen yesterday.
out of all people you chat with me.
actually i dun see the purpose of u adding me all.
seriously i dunnoe what u trying to do.
babe just 1 thing to say here.
"I know how u feel, I imagine im in ur place."
those words of urs i wont forget and i will see whr time will take us to?
oh gosh im superdupertuper tired!!!
should i go to slp now??
but i want do my project werk..
i been delaying delaying n delaying it.
but im just so sick and tired to go do research..
goooosh! i really need some super quite princess piggy slp!
its wendesday and tmrw is thursday.
i just cant wait for the weekend!
i just want to wake up late..
and go out and do some retail therapy!!
need new stuff and planning to get it on Friday!
yeaay can't wait for Friday!
its a date with Lukeeeeh-Maaan-Babbby!
and i want watch Iron Man!!
pretty pretty please...! ((:
ookley i just can't wait for weekends people!!
dying and loooking forward to it!
♥ 9:49 AM
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
damn u! damn u! damn u!
or can i say:
F YOU! F YOU! F YOU VERY VERY MUUUUUCH!
i swear that either u are heartless or very heartless!
im faking a smile just so u dunnoe im in pain.
i dun wish to show u my emotions coz i dun want any drama.
you hurt me much and u just dun realise it.
damn u! damn u! damn u!
how could u even possibly thing of that??
argggh!! im piss, im mad, im angry!
im the HULK now!!
amacam saper mau lawan?? mau brani peer?
hahah sumpah aku mepek!!
back to whr i was, damn im pissed off with u!
yesh tellign the truth is a totally YES!
but knowing that u ........
nvr dun wish to say much about it, let me keep it to myself..
im just really sad ):
♥ 12:03 AM
Monday, May 3, 2010
Gd Morning People!!
gosh im slpy rite now man!
not much of a rest and i had to drag my ass to sch..
woke up kinda a lil late for sch..
was rushing here and thr and i was so clumsy shit..
im so having Monday Blues!!
damn Monday time table!
and gosh im in an air con room but without air con!!
stooopid air con not bloody werking!!!
hey my bdae had past and i nvr felt lyke it even happen..
oh well it will be a date that i nvr would forget..
not coz it was my bdae but my grandfather pass away..
how sad to see him go..
but what could i do, Allah love him more..
i pray and hope for the best for him up thr..
so since my 18 now, guess that its tyme!
tyme to go get licence!!! hahah!!
sumpah aku happy giler!!
ohya thanks to those who wish me on my bdae..
sadly i couldnt reply u guys..
but heey i appreactie it! thanks aloo!
loove ya people! and big thanks to LuqemannDearest!
oookey im done and how i wish i could be out of this room!!
gosh its freaking hoooot in here!
♥ 9:37 AM
imysm! ):
