Thursday, February 26, 2009
somehow feel lyke blogging todae..
having bad flu.. now..
and it gotten worst..
im kinda feeling down now..
just receive text msg from Azhiim..
and that msg seriously make me so down..
i dun understand..
seriously i dun understand wats wif the sudden msg..
u were okey minutes ago n suddenly this..
did i say sumthing wrong?
but why u wanna stop the friendship?
u been a good fwen to me..
a good coach in skating for me..
u teach me alot..
and now how shld i go n sk8 if u acting this way..
i just dun understand??
cld u explain to me??
seriously Qn marks all over..
all that is left are QUESTION MARKS????
♥ 10:34 PM
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
this post goes especially to RAAQIB ((:
♥ 12:41 AM
Sunday, February 22, 2009
super tired sunday!
finally after 2 weeks i got to skate!
lyke super happy!!
miss my hubby so much..
finally got to hug him n kish him using my leg..
and the bad story was it was freaking raining!!
can u believe it i get to skate n it rain lyke super heavy..
met Azhiim at JE first, dunnoe whr to sk8 so ya just skate arnd JE..
the floor was super wet dat i fall..
damn it hurts.. and my hubby got wet..
pity2 him.. i sat n watch Azhiim skate while i dry my deck..
soo not fun.. but luckily by 4 plus it stop n be proceed to BB
with Toyol n Budi..
kiddo wasnt thr, as he was busy werking..
damn kiddo why must u werk.. miss u leer..
nvr mind thrs always other daes..
now im supeer tired laah..
i got freaking maths n bio test which i noe that bio i got 0.01% of passing
and for maths i got 50% of passing.. need studdddy!!!
done with my ART!! woohoo ((:
oklah out to study now.. :P
hope got nothing tmrw after sch ((:
♥ 8:44 PM
Friday, February 20, 2009
it seems lyke my blog haven't been updated for quite sum times..
well lately been really super busy with fucking sch werk..
test, assignments, homework's lyke nvr ending..
and for all my first test i fail..
baek2.. still in holiday mood..
but lately i been good!
haha mcm P!!
been doing my ART at the void deck every free tyme after sch..
its better den doing at home..
even if ur fwens are thr u still get to do ur werk..
den at home.. to much distraction..
LAPPY, BED, TV, FOOD, TOILET, NAGGING..
haha all that stuff makes me super lazy to do my werk..
n im glad im lyke finally done with my 15 skecthes in lyke 1 week..
yeah i can do it if i wan too..
n ya thanks for accompanying me to do my art..
so ya tmrw start my weekend..
got plenty of hw's to be done..
need to study for maths n bio test..
damn2.. better get going now..
♥ 8:42 PM
Monday, February 16, 2009
sumhow i hate 2009..
how i wish 2009 wasn't lyke this..
i miss 2008.. i tot 2009 wld be better..
but it dosen't seems lyke it..
its 4.40am and im still awake..
can't go to slp.. haiz..
just keep thinking of u..
why must i do this to you..
u dun deserve all this..
"entertaining" my dearest A wherever every opportunities come..
"Happy 2009 u!! we're going to see more of each other next year!! yeah!!"
haiz this didn't happen but wat happen is the opposite..
imy lots n its been while since we meet..
damn gonna cry..
i think i better go off to lala land now..
another SUCKY AND STRESSFUL day will arrive!!
I HATE BLOODY SCHOOL NOWWW!!!
♥ 4:34 AM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
it was V. day n guess wat i did??
spent the whole day at home!!
boring shit or waat!!
hmmm wat can i do..
i just cant go out..
dance practice was super tiring, sweat lyke a pig lah..
so stinky laah.. n feet so dirty..
got home doze off n off do hw..
damn art n english i dunnoe wat to do..
speaking of art seriously leh naik botak kepale..
friday was so sucky laah!!
so fucked up with my mly dance n art teacher..
i even fucking cry coz of that sey..
seriously stress..
stupid SYF!! people are taking their O's n u force me to go for dance..
n im cuming for it only im late coz of art..
so dun go pushing me around laah..
its soo stressful n difficult laah..
wat i noe i cry badly..
lyke cry coz off break up..
penattau nangis2..
the day before cry den cry again..
and got not enough slp..
seriously my body just want to shut down.. haizz..
oh well hope cld sk8 tmrw..
HAPPY VALENTINE/FRIENDSHIP DAY!!
love you friends!!
n ya i wan FLOWERS!! ):
♥ 2:12 AM
Thursday, February 12, 2009
my sidekick partner dah de GF lah sey..
im happy for u Faris!!last long aites..
now boring already..
no more can disturb2 u lah bacen..
will miss those merepekness!! haha
no matter wat u still bacen faris!! red ass (:
damn its late already and
i havent do my art hw..
n now im gonna slp late..
aiyoo.. stupid art!!! :/
wondering: what's next?? -_-'
♥ 11:56 PM
what have i done?
i hurt ur feelings..
i make you suffer..
i give hopes to you..
n now this happen..
I'm truly sorrt..
i didn't mean this to happen..
I've coz you to be like this..
i noe u are very very very disappointed in me..
i noe u have been very pay..
I'm at faultient with me..
patient with all the attitudes i gave you..
you have been there for me every single minute..
you never fail to entertain me even how busy u are..
i remember all those sweet memories we had..
since that incident we had been apart..
far apart from each other..
i think im that SELFISH towards you..
i think about myself, but didn't think about you feelings..
YES i am at fault its all me.. im sorry..
i noe my sorry won't change anything but
i am truly sorry to hurt you..
i broke down after reading ur msg..
i noe u had read ny earlier post..
every single word in that msg really makes me tear down..
i can't believe myself im being so selfish and hurting you lyke this..
i really do miss you!!
♥ 9:33 PM
damn super tired todae..
i think coz of too much runing during recess..
sch was AWESOME but as usual lesson was a DRAG, BORE!!
recess time was the most awesome..
was running arnd the sch from Ros..
haha seriously super tired after that.. can't stop laughing..
Ros was lyke searching2 for us.. haha..
funny2.. n as usual sch was fun wif my GF's.. lots of laughing going on..
i wonder how life will be wifout them.. confirm boring gileer!!
tk der nk ketawe2 all day long..
well i dun wish to lost them coz i LOVE THEM LOTS!!
if i were to have a bf, my GF's wld be much love than my bf.. haha
SHAFA*ROS*HID
you ROCK my world
bebeh!!
♥ 7:09 PM
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
seriously head is in a mess!!
and i really really really need to do some thinking..
so yeah planned to me MIA will still go on..
so ya if i dun reply or ans ur calls den sowie..
i dun which to contact anyone for now..
will keep update of me in my blog..
n i just wonder myself..
after what u told abt me just now..
u will noe why i wanna go MIA..
why me, if u know the true me??
the true, bad, unpleasant side of me..
i dun wish to hurt anyone feelings but i have too..
i dun wish to see you in that state but i have to..
do you think its the best thing i should do?
by moving a step back at a time..
things started to change between us..
do you think going away will make things better..
knowing that i won't be hurting u no more
and you won't have to face all my shits??
at times i do think that way..
i dun think i deserve some one who is SUPER GREAT to me..
who have been treating me so nice, tolerating my nonsense??
do u know that u are a very very very nice guy..
and i dun deserve a nice guy if i'm the old me..
u know what i mean by that, the bitching thingy..
should i let u go n be happy..
happy with some one who will treat u so nice,
who's not like me.. its hard to let go but its the best thing to do..
i dun wish to hurt u much more longer and to make u feel this way..
but at the same time i dun wish to let u go..
haiz im confused now.. should i do the rite thing n let u go..
for sure i know, it will be very hard for me n you..
once 'I LOVE YOU' have been said, everything change..
and 'I LOVE YOU' shld not be mention unless,
u mean it n u wanna be with dat sumone
well for sure i'm not planning to be with anyone for now..
♥ 9:30 PM
hey readers!
well i just feel like blogging to day..
i still got my art undone but im now in front of the com..
seriously i cant do my hw at home..
haiyaa terrible sey..
so ya ermm feel lyke talking abt Valentine's Day..
its just around the corner..
im so excited for it.. but im soooooo sad
that i can't celebrate it with YOU!!
suppose to go out wif Yat, planned to have picnic..
badly want meet YOU up!
well wat can i do rtye its not my desicion..
if my parent say NO means a NO!! lyke NOOOOOO!! haha
before i EVEN NEED TO ASK MY DAD abt it,
I NOE HIS ANSWER LAAAH!!
seriously fucking argggggggh!!!
wanna cry out loud!!!
hmm sowie Dear have to spoilt it..
hmmmn seriously im not looking foward for 2009!!
it just get WORST!!! damn 2009!! :/
oh well im facing alot of crap, shits, nonsence from everywhr..
soo ya damn im angry!!
so ya i shall end this with sum nice words.. haha
here's 2 poem on V' Day that my sweet friend wrote..
its originally from him.. n yeah i copy&paste from his blog..
sooo jgn mrh RAAQIB!! haha..
POEMS
V - ALENTINE day is one special day they say.
A - LL year round we celebrate I say.
L - OVE is not about smooching in public places.
E - EVERYDAY is full of surprises.
N - OW n forever i will be there.
T - IME stretches to years.
I - N these words i swear.
N - OT necessary to wear wedding rings to declare our love.
E - EVERYDAY is our Valentine's Day.
V - ERY fortunate to have you around.
A - LWAYS making love from my chin touches the ground.
L - ONGING for your hugs & kisses.
E - VERYDAY that is my wish.
N - O matter what you've done.
T - RYING to make Valentine a special one.
I - NSIDE my heart, your still the one.
N - OTHING but a sincere heart.
E - VERYTHING i do, i just wanna give you the best.
so what do u think??
creative rtye my fwen??
yeah u are RAAQIB!!
thats a sweet poem u noe..
n i smile as soon as u send it to me (:
*i'm missing you!*
♥ 7:18 PM
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I'm done pretending..
I dun wan to repeat history..
I dun wan to go through what i had in the past..
I hate playing games..
I hate questioning myself about this n that..
I'm tired of thinking.. I just want to play fair..
That it, full stop..
This is it.. No more than that..
It shall stop here n i mean here..
I've made my mind what will it be like..
So be it!
MIA
♥ 3:26 AM
Monday, February 2, 2009
havent been blogging for sumtime already..
been MISSING-in-ACTION lately..
kinda lazy to do stuff..
just wanna sick back n relax..
how i wish schs over for me..
can't wait till O's den im free lyke a bird..
do u noe how much it sick to have no freedom..
wanna ask to go out but scared to ask..
coz u will noe the ans will be 'NO'
seriously its no fun..
not joking.. but at the same tyme its good for me lah..
so i wont be that spoilt..
but i felt now i am.. ish!
damn i need to change.. lyke alot..
lyke the old tymes.. HAHA mcm P!!
so yeah got lotx i mean TONS of hw due..
but im here busy blogging.. hehe
coz i got no mood to study as so much is bothering me..
psl nie lain, tu lain..
mcm2 laah..
ohya n to dose who text me n i didn't reply..
sowie ya my pp8 low..
i think i shld go MIA ya.. how fun..
since pp8 low why not go MIA.. haha
oklah better get going to do hws.. hahaha
♥ 8:52 PM
hehe..
