believing is one thing but erasing the painful feeling is another thing.
how i wish u see how my feelings are.
it wasn't about the trusting issue.
its about how i feel.
do you noe how crush was i just now.
how mad, angry, sad i get.
really it wasn't what i expected.
i trust u, really i do.
but i just can't get over it in a matter of seconds.
its not that simple okey.
this is much more painful than anything.
saying that its all up to me now.
do what i want and u wont bother.
does that really show how much u want things to get better?
its just sending the wrong msg to me.
its showing that u don't really care abt how hurt i am.
u dun mind us not getting back to whr we were before.
coz u noe why? loosing me doesn't really matters right.
at least you still have someone with u.
oh well, is this what i get for being quite to myself?
for letting the pain heal so that i be fine and smiling?
im not making a small flame into a blaze.
but i just want to cool down.
how i wish u see that n understand.
coz u just being selfish.
am i at fault right now? ya it seems lyke it.