okey whoever gonna read this..
think carefully..
coz its a damn long post this tyme..
im letting out my feelings..
if u think its a waste of ur tyme..
den dun bother reading it.. (:
people from the past are lyke coming back..
texting me n calling me..
haiz.. why u cum back after u ditch me?
why dun u get a new life..
especially this particular person..
u make me go crzay over u..
until i do stupid stuff..
den i fall for all ur sweet words..
u ignore me lyke hell..
den u ditch me just lyke that..
den now u come back..
saying "i want contact u lyke before"
if i noe thats gonna happen,
i won't have text wishing u happy bdae..
oh plz laah.. it didnt werk out before..
what makes u think it will werk out now??
u think i'll go goo goo gaa gaa over u again??
when i dun text u or reply to ur msges,
u start saying i action laah..
all those crap laah..
oh plz u think i free want text u eeh??
haiyaa sumtimes i just dun understand guys..
sumtimes u guys can be complicted lyke girls..
and ya why im even bother abt this guys..
i shld be focusing more on my O LVL!!!
freaking O LVL!!
why cant it be now..?
so that i can bloody get over n done wif it..
and i can freaking ENJOY my life (:
i can lyke go out n come back late..
i can werk n earn money..
i can sk8 everday at 3 diff places..
it sure to be fun..
especially the skating part..
BB, BISHAN N BEDOK!
HAHA i just realise, it all start wif B's!
haha k ain crap already!
i feel lonely sumtime at nite..
thats what i told Azhiim..
n his reply was " it's just because u're bored!"
haha well his true but not 100% true..
well i feel lyke having a BF now..
who i can love with all my heart..
who i can spent tyme wif..
who i can meet wen i miss him..
who i can text n talk wif, day and nyte..
BUT at the same tyme no i dun wan..
i want to focus on O lvl first..
i want finish sch first..
coz i noe, r/ship can sumtymes get in ur way..
u will be love sick n
that u dun want do anything especially study,
but u just want be around him..
or wen u start being heartbroken,
u cant do anything but cry n feel sad..
i wan enjoy my life..
i want have alot of gfs plus bfs..
i can do what i want..
no one can control me..
no one can stop me from doing anything..
i wont want to hurt anyone ( but currently im hurting people)
this is to you:
i noe u told me ur true feelings..
but im sorry we can't be an item..
i appreciate everything u given me..
the care, love, tyme n others..
especially wen u cum down Clementi,
to meet me for awhile only..
i treasure u for doing that..
but im sowie i cant return u love..
im just not ready to be wif u..
or even anyone..
i hope u understand.. (well u do)
maybe one day if my heart is truelly open,
to be in a r/ship n be in love..
u cld be the one who completes me..
but currently i wish we stay this way..
friends are sumtimes better than being an item..
u may think i dun really care for u..
but i really do care, u just dun see it..
if u see me texting other guys or meeting them..
pls dun think otherwise..
im not cheating u, im just being friends with everyone..
so pls dun assume anything ookey..
if i dun lyke u, i'll tell u straight to ur face..
so u dun have to worry..
as long we are texting each other..
means i love u being my fwen n being thr for me (:
i wont say the three letter words..
if im not ready for a r/ship..
even if ily i wont say it..
coz im not ready to be wif u or anyone..
and i dun wish to hurt u..
okey im done...
haha super long arr..
who read this post..
thanks for reading!
especially thanks to FAISAL!
i noe even how long it is..
u are my everyday reader (:
and ya do tag me laah..
say something okey?
i took lyke ermm...
15mins to type this!
haha (:
